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Post by Liam O'Doherty on Feb 20, 2011 21:07:34 GMT -5
Liam finishes wrapping up the bandage and gauze around his chest then carefully wipes the leftover blood off of Anthru. Then he tugs his shirt back on and eyes Gabby. "So hey, I've been meaning to ask you something. Lately it seems..., and uh, let me qualify this by saying I don't really know you that well and this isn't my area of expertise but, lately you seem to be slightly out of sorts." Scratches the back of his head uncomfortably, "and then there's the bandages on your arms; is everything all right?"
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Post by Gabriella Velas on Feb 20, 2011 21:13:20 GMT -5
Gabby looks at Liam in surprise. "Um just my visions have been bothering me lately. Most all of them are bad things, Catherine says Fate only shows us what is important and bad stuff is important." she tries to shrug it off. "The bandages cover the wounds from offerings to my father...it helps recharge me. I figure no one wants to look at those." she smiles weakly
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Post by Liam O'Doherty on Feb 20, 2011 21:33:42 GMT -5
Liam cocks his head, the mental gears obviously churning. "Wow, I uh, don't know what to say. Or where to start..uh. Well, as for the first thing...I'll just say this and leave it alone. If you need someone to talk to, I am taking psychology and we did cover active listening so I am a semi-trained half-assed professional. Don't think of it as opening up to me, think of it as helping me practice my bedside manner for when I become a nurse." Liam smiles broadly and winks boyishly. "And as for the second..." uncomfortable shift "I'm curious as to how that whole sacrificing thing works...because you honestly don't seem recharged...and some of those scars..are..curious.."
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Post by Gabriella Velas on Feb 20, 2011 21:38:37 GMT -5
"Catherine is helping me deal with the visions, but I'll keep that in mind." she sits down next to you and sighs. "All I do is make a cut and bleed a bit...but yes there is more to these," she gestures to her arm "than that. The others know so I don't see why you shouldn't. Do you remember junior year well?"
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Post by Liam O'Doherty on Feb 20, 2011 21:41:53 GMT -5
Liam smiles weakly, "As well as anyone I suppose, I didn't get my perfect memory until senior year."
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Post by Gabriella Velas on Feb 20, 2011 21:48:14 GMT -5
"Well a few weeks after I turned 16 I found out I was pregnant, yes by Scott Lawrence. When I told my father he forced me to the doctors to have an abortion. It was like the straw that broke the camel's back for me. I had been cutting the year prior so it wasn't a huge leap to try to kill myself. I tried to kill myself with pills, then hanging but the rope broke, then I slit my arms." she traces her finger up the long scar on her left arm "Tez came and visited me. Said my sacrifice was accepted and healed me, though left the scars as a reminder."
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Post by Liam O'Doherty on Feb 20, 2011 22:08:16 GMT -5
Liam blinks and takes a moment to absorb everything. Then he purses his lips and exhales loudly. "Ya know, it's not often I'm left speechless, and now twice in one conversation. You'll be receiving a letter from my mother soon inquiring as to how you do it and if you're available for family reunions." Awkward chuckle "That's a lot to process... and I don't know what to say that won't sound like an empty platitude...and it seems like I still have a great deal to learn on being a good listener. But, I'll say it anyways. I'm terribly sorry." He rests his hand on Gabby's shoulder. "So I guess then comes my next awkward question...why do you continue to cut yourself? I mean, in the same way you used to..if it was a simple matter of giving your father blood.."
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Post by Gabriella Velas on Feb 20, 2011 22:16:46 GMT -5
Gabby lets out a hollow chuckle, "I should have known you'd see more than Dave. Yes I do still cut myself. You're the first to ask why. I know it is a reaction to stress. When I get stressed out and overwhelmed I need to feel relief and cutting does that in a way similar to drinking or drugs or sex. It lets me feel...something truly good. Oh I feel anger, sorrow, guilt, and lust easily enough...but everything else seems...out of my grasp."
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Post by Liam O'Doherty on Feb 20, 2011 22:54:04 GMT -5
Liam nods thoughtfully, "Emotional numbing...well I'm not gonna try and babble onto you about therapy crap, especially since I'm only dabbling in it myself. But there is a common technique that might help if you're willing to try and put the effort into it. It's called avoidance. Fairly simple actually, but it's gonna rely on your self-control and/or your willingness to rely on others. Next time you feel the need to feel 'more alive' simply try and do something else. Try going for a jog, take a shower, give Dave a call and have him give you a ride on his bike. It's kinda like trying to quit smoking cold turkey, try and replace the habit with another one. It can be as simple as giving someone a call to talk to, or writing in a journal. Hell, masturbate for all I care." Liam pauses, reddens slightly then coughs and continues, "Anyways, that's a common therapy technique and about the best advice I can give you at this time. Try and find something else to do. May sound lame, but I'm told it helps some people. The only other solution is, of course, to talk about the issues that cause it all...and I'm missing a corn pipe and an awful fleece jacket to help with that.." Liam smiles once more to try and break the tension.
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Post by Gabriella Velas on Feb 20, 2011 23:02:22 GMT -5
"Been there tried that." she says with a light smile "It's what started the drug thing with me actually. Look I appreciate what you're trying to do, it's sweet, but I was in therapy before and it didn't work." a look passes over her face "Knowing you guys are here for me if I need it helps but all things considered I'm doing ok. And I don't feel the need to die anymore either."
"Besides if you plan on being the band's counselor then I suggest finding us a more comfortable couch." she says with a smile
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Post by Liam O'Doherty on Feb 20, 2011 23:14:16 GMT -5
Liam nods skeptically and shrugs, "OK, well I've said my piece. And as for the couch, consider it done. Just remember there's no sex on the therapy couch. And you know where my room is if you need me more than for an occasional stabbing."
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Post by Gabriella Velas on Feb 20, 2011 23:20:52 GMT -5
Gabby laughs "Hey I make it a point to keep sex out of this room thank you very much." she says with mock hurt.
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Post by Liam O'Doherty on Feb 20, 2011 23:23:29 GMT -5
Liam smiles and stands to leave, "Of course of course, but you might want to ask Dr. Lord about getting your room sound proofed..."
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